When I was a little girl
there was a hole
inside my belly
where self-esteem
should have been
I set out on a journey
to fill that hole…
I starved myself so I could be skinny
I worked hard to be popular
I overachieved in school
I became
Homecoming Queen
Student Body President
Valedictorian
Was THIS self-esteem??
I sought attention and fame
by moving to Hollywood
I worked in nightclubs
Dated celebrities
Modeled
Auditioned for TV & film
Was THIS self-esteem??
I started drinking in order to fit in
I started drinking to appease alcoholic men
I kept drinking even though it was POISON
Poison for my body
Poison for my mind
Poison for my soul
Was THIS self-esteem??
I got certified at this school
And certified at that school
Oh, and at that school other too
I graduated with one degree
then I graduated with another degree…
Next up be would be my PhD
Was THIS self-esteem??
I worked night and day
to build a career I could be proud of
I worked night and day
to selflessly be there for others
I worked night and day
Night and day
Night and day
Was THIS self-esteem??
Yesterday, I cried
I cried for the little girl
with a hole inside her belly
I put two hands over the pain
I rocked her back and forth
back and forth
I told her, of course!
Of course you didn’t have any self-esteem
Of course this hole is empty
It’s not your fault
I love you
I understand you
I am FINALLY here for you
She whispered back
Thank You
THIS is SELF-ESTEEM